The Last Time Any Human Speaks to Another

By Chef JRHEvilInc/Joel R. Hunt


Through the darkness of his closed eyes, Jack let the ambiance of the hall wash through him. Dozens of clearing throats. Hundreds of shuffling bodies. Thousands of fingers sliding along screens.

Amazing how he’d never really heard it before.

“Jack Willborough?” asked a gentle voice. Jack jolted in his seat and opened his eyes. An old woman stood before him, bent over with age, or perhaps just the pain of walking across such a cavernous room to reach his table.

“Yes,” Jack said, gesturing opposite him, “I presume you’re Alice?”

A nod was her only response. No doubt she had to rest her voice for a while now. Jack watched as she struggled into the hard plastic chair, face creased with arthritic agony. A long minute dredged by. Once the woman had settled, Jack leaned in to be more easily heard.

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Just Another Night

By Chef Vital_Dual


It’s about thirty minutes to midnight when my phone vibrates and starts to blare its ringtone. I jump off the couch and nearly have a heart attack. It’s just another night, one that’s been wonderfully quiet so far. After a chaotic Friday evening that lasted until five in the morning, it’s nice to spend this Saturday alone at home, watching whatever crappy movies are on TV.

I recover and answer it. It’s Mike, though I can barely hear him over the pounding music in the background. “We’re leaving the club now!” he screams. “The girls ditched us and Trent wants to get home early so he can go to church with his family.”

“Sounds good,” I say. “Did you bring enough cash for a cab this time?” Mike’s stories of getting stranded downtown in the middle of the night have become legendary.

“Nah, Jason’s friend has a car. He’s driving us back.”

I frown. “Has he been drinking?”

“Like, one or two beers. He says he’s fine.” He says something to someone nearby, but I can’t make it out. “I’ll be home soon. Don’t worry about staying up for me.”

“Thanks, but I’m not tired. That, and mom and dad told us to always deadbolt the door, and if I do that you won’t be able to get in.”

He laughs. “I’m not sleeping in the front yard again! ‘kay, I’ll be home soon.”

He hangs up and I go back to my movie. There’s something about mindless violence and explosions that just seems so relaxing. Or maybe it’s the fact that school’s finally done for the winter holidays, and my parents wisely decided to go on a cruise with friends for a week before Christmas. Mike and I have the house to ourselves: for him, it means no stern looks when he staggers home reeking of alcohol; for me, it’s no constant reminders to start looking for a job in time for graduation.

The movie goes to its fifteenth commercial and I head to the kitchen for a snack. As I throw a bunch of eggs, cheese and vegetables into a skillet, I hear a loud cracking noise in the backyard. I press my face to the cold, frosty window and look out, but there’s nothing out there but a few bare trees and some fresh-fallen snow. Probably just an animal. It can’t be easy to survive the winter.

My cell phone rings again, so I wander back into the living room to grab it. It’s Mike. I can hear sirens in the background. “Uh, so Jason’s friend kinda, um, lost control of the car.” It sounds like he’s holding the phone half a foot away from his mouth.

“Oh God. What happened?”

“We hit a pole. Car’s totaled, but we’re all okay. I think. Cops are here. They’re talking to the driver.” He laughs. “He’s definitely drunk.”

“No kidding.”

“They’re ignoring the rest of us, and there’s a bus here so I’m gonna on and get home.”

“Sounds like a plan.” I pause and grimace. “Wait. Do you know what bus to get on?”

“I’ll figure it out. Will call you when I’m close.” He’s gone, and I go back to the movie.

There’s a lull in the action, when attractive male protagonist and attractive female protagonist engage in an awkward sexual conversation, which might have worked if they had any sort of chemistry, and my mind wanders to my job hunt. A few of my classmates say they know great companies to work for—apparently mechanical engineers are invulnerable to the bad unemployment rate—but I’m really not sure if I just want to jump into things. Travelling would be fun. There’d be something immensely rewarding about sending Mike a photo of me on the beach while he’d be studying for midterms in the middle of October. Totally worth passing up on an easy job for.

A sudden blaring noise comes from the kitchen. I jump up into the thick smell of smoke. The omelette. Damn it. There’s about a foot of black smoke hovering in the kitchen. I run in, pull my burnt snack off the stove and open every window, letting the chilling air in. My creation is little more than ash, so I open the backdoor and throw it out for whatever animals are trying to get through the night. So much for that.

There’s some leftover pasta in the fridge. I’m happy to eat it cold; at this point, I’m better off not heating anything up. I settle down and continue the movie, but my mind’s going back to travelling. I’ve always wanted to go across the pond, check out Europe, maybe backpack through Germany, see the sights in France, practice my fake accent in Britain. What’s it like there in the summer? Hot, I’d bet, but not any hotter than it is here. Hopefully less humid.

Again, my ringtone snaps me back to the real world. “Now you pick up!” Mike’s shouting, but I can barely hear him. Wherever he is, the reception is terrible. “I’ve been calling for hours!”

I look at the clock and roll my eyes. “You last called forty-five minutes ago. Where are you?”

“I have no idea. The bus is going in the middle of nowhere. I have no idea where any of these stops are. Hell, I don’t even think they’re in English.”

I sigh loudly. Not this again. “How much did you have to drink?”

“Drink? I can’t even…” He trails off, replaced with a loud, harsh static. I pull the phone from my ear. A few seconds later, it disconnects. Whatever. He’ll find a way home.

The movie eventually ends, but it’s just past midnight and I’m hardly tired. Now I’m regretting allowing my roommate to convince me to leave my gaming console at school. This is the perfect sort of boredom for grabbing a sniper rifle and telling twelve-year-olds how great their moms are in bed. And then Mike could have joined right in. He probably spends more time playing than I do, and he doesn’t even live with me. I think my parents are relieved that we’re going to the same school. He’s been trying his absolute best to get his life back on track, and I’m able to be there in case he needs a shoulder to lean on.

A loud scream comes from the backyard. I go back into the now-freezing kitchen and grab a flashlight from the cupboard. I shine it around, but there’s nothing out there. The remains of the omelet are gone, and there are a ton of paw prints around the area. Raccoons? Squirrels? Maybe coyotes? Whatever they were, they moved quickly.

The smoke in the kitchen’s gone. I close all the windows and lie back down in the living room. I guess I doze off, because when I wake up it’s one-thirty in the morning. There’s been no contact from Mike, so I give him a call.

“Hello?” Now it’s like he’s talking into a phone on the other side of the room. “Are you there? Please say something!”

“I’m here,” I say slowly. “Have you figured out the way home yet?”

“I can’t.” Despite the low volume, I can hear panic in his voice. “I’ve been riding for days. Maybe weeks, I can’t tell. Transferring from bus to bus. None of them are going anywhere.” I swear, I can hear him whimper. I can’t help but grin. I’m going to hold this against him for YEARS. “I don’t want to get off. There’s something wrong around here. Something dark. It’s waiting for me.”

“Yeah, it’s called the night, and it’s not very friendly to blackout drunks, now is it?”

“Stop it. Just stop…” He fades away.

“Hello? Mike?” I check my phone. It’s still connected. “If you can hear me, just get off and grab a cab, okay?”

He comes back, with a slightly clearer voice. “We just passed Wedmore. I recognize this place!”

“That’s good, seeing as we drove by it nearly every single day when we were kids.” I sit up, and suddenly I’m feeling groggy. Time for bed. “Anyway, I’m gonna go—“

“No!” he shouts forcefully. “Please stay. Don’t hang up.”

“Okay…” Now I’m wondering if he took any substances beyond alcohol. It’s like he’s combined the hallucinations of shrooms with the depressants of beer. I grimace. It’s what the old Mike would have done.

“Just… just talk to me. How are things at home?”

“They’re good,” I say. “There’s a bunch of animals outside, making lots of noise. I think they’re raccoons, but they could be bears. Might want to watch yourself.”

“Cool.” The connection’s even better. “Just went over the bridge. I’m a few stops away.”

“And there you go. Was there any reason to have been concerned?”

“Like you wouldn’t believe.” He pauses. “Man, I cannot wait to get home. I think I can hear my bed calling me.”

“Is it saying ‘Clean me?’”

He laughs, loudly and heartily. “I’m nearly there. Jesus, I’m glad the night is over. Thanks for not hanging up.”

“I’m always here. You know that.”

“It was weird,” he continues, “I couldn’t call or text anyone. I tried to get on Facebook, but it looked really strange. And as soon as you called, I realized where I was. It’s like it came out of nowhere.” His voice rises. “And there’s our street! I’ll call you when I’m near the house. Holy crap, that’s dark…” He hangs up. I go to the front window and look out. All the street lights are on, casting their pale-orange tint on the road. I gaze as far down as I can. No sign of him.

I’m about to go and clean up the kitchen, but my phone rings. “Where the hell is our house?”

I throw my free hand up incredulously. “The same place it’s always been, you idiot?”

“I can’t see it. The street is way too dark. I don’t even know if I’m on the sidewalk or the road.”

“What are you talking about? It’s bright as day out there.” I go over to the front door and flick the outside light a few times, showing off our snow-covered driveway, the one Mike was supposed to shovel before heading out. “There. Can you see—“

“I saw it!” he screams. “The light! Turn it back on!” I do so, even though it adds nothing to the overall brightness of our neighbourhood. “I see it. Okay, yeah, I’m close now.”

I look out the window, but still can’t see him. There’s just a pair of headlights coming down the street. “How close are you?”

“Nearly there. Oh, thank God, I’m nearly there.”

The headlights slow down at my driveway. “Are you in a car?”

“No. Do you know how easy a car would have made all of this?”

I scoff. “I think there’s a lot of things that could have made this easier.”

He’s silent for a moment, and then he sighs. “Look, I know what you’re thinking, but I swear, I only had a few drinks.” His voice lowers. “I’m done with that other stuff. I made that promise, and I’m going to keep it.”

“I know.” The car’s pulling into my driveway. It’s the police. What the hell is going on here?

“I’m steps away. The house has never looked so good,” Mike says. The car stops and two officers get out, both struggling on the slippery driveway. They take their caps off and hold them against their chests.


“What is it?” Mike asks. “I’m at the driveway. Can you see me?”

The world stops around me. This was supposed to be just another night. Everything I’d done—the movie, the omelet, those animals outside, what I’m going to do when I graduate—had been so inconsequential. That was the point. That was the goddamn point.

The officers are walking up the steps. My throat is suddenly very tight, but I manage to get the words out. “Yeah, bro. I can see you.”

“Awesome. I’ll be there in a minute. Thanks for guiding me home.”

“It’s what I’m here for.” I take a deep breath. “See you soon.”

“Can’t wait.” He hangs up. A few seconds later there’s a knock on the door.

I open it.

The Light from Another Room

By Chef Xenocentric

I can’t imagine how I got the goddamn thing. I first time I remember laying eyes on it was the day I pulled a box from the garage and found it lying at the bottom with rest of emergency candles. That evening a blackout hit, like I’d expected, and it was only reason I ever touched a flame to any of its four wicks in the first place.

Storms don’t do this town any favors. The saying goes that there are only two seasons in the desert — hot and cold. Get a little bit of weather beyond that, a smidge of precipitation, a fine layer of clouds overhead, and you’re just asking for trouble. Hell, the inch of snow that graces us every half a decade panics the town into a complete shutdown.

It was too early in the season for snow, but I knew the deal just heading home after a second shift at the meat packing plant that evening. There had been a lot of wind gusting down from the north since half-past-five, and the lights at the plant had started flickering at about quarter-past-eight. Once I pulled into the garage and clamped the door down against the wind, I checked the Mag-Lite I keep in my glove compartment for batteries and fished out a box of matches I keep in there, too. Before I entered the house, I went to the shelf along the wall and hauled out that box of candles.

Inside, I set it on the kitchen table and lifted off the lid. There were about a dozen candles of all sizes rolling around the bottom. The biggest was block of wax, maybe 7×7 inches wide and about ten inches tall. Four wicks stood out at the top, off-center at each corner of the block. Each looked like they had been lighted at one time for a brief period. Their slightly charred nubs poked up in a shallow bowl of melted wax, but the top of the candle was otherwise flat. No dried rivulets ran down the sides.

I carried the block to the living room, figuring it would give the most light and burn the longest. At the very least, if it burned faster than I estimated is ought to, I could douse three of the wicks and just burn one at a time as a conservation measure. It was quite heavy, as I expected a big hunk of wax would be, but it had a strange sort of heft to it. I got the impression as I handled it that its center of gravity was somewhat wonky, as if there was an air pocket hollowing one corner, just under the surface. I gave it a couple of firm raps after I set it on the paper plate I’d placed on the coffee table to catch rivulets of melting was, but detected no weaknesses in any of its four sides.

Standing back from it, I noticed for the first time the shifting colors of the candle. From one angle, its hue appeared to be a dark, not quite heavy violent or deep magenta; from another it shifted to a sort of black mossy-green.

It was a weird effect, the way the wax caught the light, certainly, but barely a curiosity all the same, so there was no reason to pay the candle any more attention than I had already before I took to setting up the rest of the candles around the house, checking the batteries in my alarm clock on my nightstand, switching off the two power cords for the computer and the TV. Set for the impending blackout, I pulled out a book, sat on the couch and forgot about the candle sitting on the table before me.

I listened to the wind get worse over the next hour, just as I knew it would. Deep howls rattled the window panes and sudden gusts pummeled the slope of the roof, loud as boulder-sized fists. The house lights flickered at the high point of each volley.

Around ten, the cat started to yowl outside. I rose and went to the foyer to let her in. The second I opened the door, out went the lights. I hadn’t thought to bring the flashlight with me, so I had to bump my way back to the couch, blind, stepping high to avoid the cat as she tried to rub up against my calves. Then it took me long, ridiculous seconds of patting around the cushions before I finally found the matches.

I lighted the big candle first, touching a flame to each of the four wicks crowning the top, then immediately grabbed the flashlight and flicked the beam on — which I probably why I didn’t notice anything … off in the reach of the candle’s glow at first.

Once I’d gotten the other candles I’d planted around the house lit, I sat back down on the couch and tried to read some more, but the guttering illumination started to give me a headache. I put the book down and turned on a battery-powered radio. It was an old transistor deal, and since reading was out of the option, I figured I’d try the local station for new on the storm. The frequency was pure fuzz, though, and if I got anything more than static anywhere else across the dial, it was country music or a Mexican station. Naturally. But I continued to tap the dial across the band and see if I could catch a smidge of a signal. It was something to do.

You see, an old radio is a much more subtle device than the newer decks you get today. Anymore, you can only press the scan button that will only find relatively clear stations, which is nice to have while you’re driving. But with a transistor, you have to manually to find a station. It’s not as reliable, but I like them better, because there might be something hidden in the fuzz that would be ignored by the scanner on a new model, something a steady hand and capable can pinpoint. Sometimes you can stumble across conversations from a mobile phone or even police scanners. Those are a treat. I once discovered a “numbers station” — those radio stations that broadcast the voice, emotionally hollow and machine-like, of a woman reciting a series of double-digit numbers. They are, I guess, the covert communications from government agencies to spies, domestic and foreign, although no one’s really sure. There’s certainly a prosaic reason for the existence of numbers stations, but, trust me, your hackles will rise if you ever chance upon one out of the blue.

At one point I thought heard a piece of something, a voice, startlingly clear for a second, then gone the next. This got me interested, but the cat was rubbing up against me, stretching out a paw and meowing for attention. I hadn’t seen her in a couple of days, so I set the radio on the table, picked her up and put her in my lap and gave her a good, solid rub-down.

I call her “the cat” because she’s a stray who started coming around the yard about three years ago. She was skinny and ragged-looking, so I started putting out bowls of cat food and water for her. Wasn’t long before she started coming indoors when it was cold or wet, or when she simply wanted attention. I never named her, because I figured that one day she’d never show up again, and I didn’t want to feel any attachment to her after she was gone. All the attention I gave her when she was around probably wasn’t helping me to achieve that goal. Didn’t help, either, that I was the only person in the world she seemed to like. When I had guest, the cat would hiss and run and hide, or start pawing at the door to go outside. I have a friend who considers herself a “cat-whisperer.” All cats love her, she used to insist, and “the cat” would love her, too. She left that day disabused of the notion, glowering, and nursing a fresh line of four claw-marks, superficial but no-nonsense, from elbow to wrist. I understand why this behavior convinced my acquaintances that the cat was an asshole, but it made me feel special.

The cat submitted to my favors until something caught her attention. Without preamble, she leapt from my lap and slinked over to a corner of the house, sniffing at the baseboards.

The wind continued to steadily batter the house without let-up. Since my eyes had grown used to the dimness, I stood up and strolled around the room, blowing out every other candle. Waste not, want not. When I snuffed one I’d place on the sill of a window looking out onto the backyard, I noticed a crack in the pane.

I swore to myself. The wind must have picked up something solid and smacked against the glass. I hadn’t heard the impact or the breach, but there it was, like a frozen streak of silver lightning, bisecting the pane from the upper corner of the frame on one side all the way down to the lower corner on the other. I shook my head. The glass was finished, I supposed, though I ought to consider myself lucky the broken half hadn’t fallen out and shattered on the floor.

And yet, the more I looked at the damage, the more it seemed I should be hearing the crack of broken glass under my boots. It seemed I was looking at a thoroughly broken window pane, ragged bottom half of the glass still set in the frame, the upper half gone, the window half-open to the night and the gales of wind.

I raised my hand and traced two fingertips along the glass, from the lower, dirty part of the pane upward toward the crack. I expected to find the upper part of the pane slightly dislodged in the frame, and tilted at an angle so that the light hitting the two sections refracted at different angles. That would, I supposed, account illusion that the upper half of the pane was gone.

But a cracked, but unbroken pane of glass is not what I found.

I jumped and took two involuntary steps backward, rubbing the tips with my thumb, glaring at the window.

There was no crack — and yet, at the same time, there was, just above the image of the crack, a sharp, shear cut that brushed along the whorls of my fingertips. And it was the edge of broken glass. It was a gap in the pane. And a hairsbreadth above that, I felt a hot, a very hot, a side-of-the-oven-hot breeze sting the tips of my fingers.

That was impossible, of course — the gales outside would be howling in my ears and smacking me around the face and neck if I were gazing through only one-half a broken windowpane.

I rubbed the tips of my fingers, feeling the tingle of that oven-hot burn cooling to a steel wool scrub and finally settling to the sensation of pins-and-needles. My mind wrestled with both sensations. As if trying to make sense a double-image on a warped film loop — each condition, broken/not-broken, superimposed upon the other, one rising to clarity while the other softened, then again in reverse — my mind seemed to be trying to find the focus that would allow me to understand both at the same time, but I simply could not find the balance between the two.

Nausea overtook me. I felt pulled in opposite directions, as if I were in the middle of a centrifuge and was being gathered into two distinct realities.

I think I might have passed out except for a sudden thump from behind that shook me from my trance. I almost wish I had fallen to the floor unconscious, right then. But if I had, I wouldn’t have the choice — the chance — I now have. Good or bad, I wouldn’t have it, and it may make all the difference.

I wheeled around to face the room, settled now in the glow of the heavy, quadruple-wicked candle atop of the coffee table. The cat was on the opposite side, at the far wall by the foyer, where she had crept off after leaping to the floor from my lap. She’d found something under a small side table there.

Her tale was straight up in the air, the tip twitching. Her back legs and shoulders strained as she struggled with something in her jaws. I stood watching a moment, still dazed from the whirring unreality of a broken/not-broken window, waiting — hoping — to feel myself coalesce back into one. I watched her blankly, without comprehension; her actions blunt movements that had no meaning.

The glow of the of candle, the four-point crown between the two of us, dazzled my vision; so when the cat finally managed, with one uncompromising tug, to wrench her prize from the shadows and into the light, knocking the leg of the side table and rocking the top edge against the wall — repeating the hollow thump that had first snapped me out of my trace at the window– I doubted what I saw. Only when the single slim candle atop side table finally toppled onto its side, dousing the flame in a splash of hot wax, did, strangely, the sight of the cat’s prize become clear to me.

On the radio, a blast of clarity broke through the static. It was the clear voice a woman speaking in the emotionless, no-nonsense tones of a newscaster. It was probably the bland officiousness that made me, at first, take no notice of her words.

I grabbed the Mag-Lite from the coffee table, aimed it at the cat, and snapped on the beam. The moment the light illuminated the floor beneath the side table, the cat skittered backward onto her rump. She gave a yowl of surprise and frustration, but was immediately back on her feet and sniffing around for her prize.

She couldn’t find it. I couldn’t, either. It was gone. How it could have vanished in the Mag-Lite beam, I couldn’t understand. I swept the beam back and forth across the length of the baseboards. Nothing. But for the moment, the mystery of its disappearance took second place to the mystery of what it had been — or what I thought it had been — as the cat wrestled it out into the open.

It had looked like a hunk of meat, of freshly cut pork hock, the kind of thing I prepare and the plant myself. Red and raw at one end, white bone cleanly severed at the center, wrapped in pale, loose sack of pigskin.

I know what you’re thinking, but trust me, I am not the kind of guy who brings his work home with him. And even if I were, I wouldn’t let hunk of raw meat lie around my living room.

Something else caught my attention from the corner of my eye. Something on the wall. Flat and rectangular, like a medium-sized painting of a landscape or family portrait. I hung nothing anywhere on any wall in my house. But here was something hanging now. It was neither a landscape nor a portrait. It was a sign. White background with plain black lettering. It read:

Official LP Provider

Local 151

I didn’t have to raise the Mag-Lite to read it; I could see it well enough, along with the simple calendar hung on the wall beneath it. It was open to the current month. The day’s date had been circled in red ink. I couldn’t have thought at the time to look at the year.

I might have thought that someone was playing a prank on me — and even if I had, the joke made no sense, anyway; I mean, what the hell was an “LP Provider”? — but I knew that sign was not hanging on that wall when I’d come home. The first time I’d seen it, and the calendar that accompanied it, was by the glow of that four-pointed candle in the middle of my coffee table.

The wind was still battering the house. Spoken words were seeping into my consciousness. It was the voice of the woman on the radio, still droning her news report.

“On the tale of unconfirmed reports of hostiles southeast of Bakersfield, local militia plans to create a ‘buffer zone’ from the northern Kern County to southern Orange County–“

And by the off-kilter, guttering glow of that candle, I saw more. My living room had … distended. Normally, two people might be able to lay head-to-toe across the width of the floor. Now, instead of a south wall, against which my television usually sat, stretched a length of concrete flooring, mottled and untidy as foundation laid bare in a demolished house after the carpet had been ripped up.

“–might soon march to the mayor’s office with the intent to burn it down. The news contained in this dispatch has been re–“

It was as if the south wall had been knocked down and I was looking directly into the dining room and kitchen beyond. In fact, it was perfectly like that. The dimensions were the same, but there were boards nailed to the wall on the far side that would have covered the exact spot where the dining room window would — should — be. Instead of tables and chairs stood what looked like a pair of pushcarts, the same sort you see in hotels that the housekeeping uses to transfer loads of laundry from room to room in hotels. In this case, the bags of the carts seemed to be made from a heavy and rough material, like burlap. Dark stains spotted the sides and drenched the bottoms.

To the right of the carts, in place of the off-white ceramic tiles that made up the surfaces of the counters in the kitchen, stood stainless-steel cutting tables. Where the kitchen sink used to be was a freestanding, wide-basin industrial job; stainless steel, like the cutting tables. A faucet poked out from the wall above it, attached to one end of a neatly looped gray hose gleaming on the floor. And, finally, instead of the door to the porch, stood two tall, wide stainless-steel doors of what could only be a pair of refrigeration units.

“–clouds of chlorine gas continue to blow in from the southwest. Citizens are instructed to keep gas masks close at–“

These images seemed to be melting into my awareness, as if I were only seeing them after I discovered the absence of what I expected to find. As the images began to solidify, sounds began to accompany them. And with these sounds, sensations.

The wind blowing outside grew louder, as though I were hearing it not through a buffer of walls and glass but as it howled inside and invaded the interior of the house — through broken windows, say. The wind had a sizzle riding its gusts, which I both heard and felt against my skin, tingling my arms and the side of my face. I felt it pulling at my clothes and tossing my hair. The two pushcarts squeaked as the wind rocked them gently on their wheels. The boards across the kitchen window rattled.

“–estimated thirty-six dead before the riot was brought under control–“

But above all this, I heard another sound, a sound that was frightening for the very reason that it was so familiar. At first, I couldn’t accept I was hearing it at all. It was heavy, rhythmic* … thump … thump … thump ….* I had just left that sound behind, only a few hours earlier. In fact, I had been participating the making of that sound.

And as that rhythmic thumping began to push away nearly everything else in my awareness, I began to perceive a figure in the kitchen area, among the cutting tables.

The figure’s back was to me. Broad shoulders and thickly muscled arms told me it was a man. His head was bald, probably shaven. His arms were bare through the sleeveless straps and buckles of a heavy leather smock. As I watched, his right hand raised to shoulder height. The hand wore a thick rubber glove. It clutched a meat cleaver whose sides glistened from the process of his work. In a moment, the figure brought the cleaver down, quickly and expertly, upon his work on the table before him, hidden from me behind his bulk.

Thump …

At the sound of sharp, splintering crack of rent bone and sinew, he pulled slick hock of meat — exactly like the hock the cat had wrestled with — from its place on the carcass, and slid it to one side of the table.

“…in direct violation of Tri-County processing and consumption laws…”

At my side, the cat sprung forward, so startling me, I dropped the Mag-Lite, which I had completely forgotten I held. She made a beeline for the figure — the butcher, for that’s what he was — and sprung up onto one of the cutting tables.

“…a mass grave containing no less than two dozen heads accompanied by stripped bones baring the marks of systematic dismemberment and defleshing, along with burn patterns indicative of exposure to flame while still covered with flesh…”

Cat …,” I tried to call, but my voice rasped out on a dry whisper. I had an image of the cat striking at the figure, and the figure wheeling around with that cleaver to —

But, instead, she meowed and reached her paw out to bat at the figure’s back.

On the radio, the newswoman’s voice was replaced by a man’s voice. The tones were slightly more pleasant, if as strict and no-nonsense as the woman’s.

“This is a public notice. LP foodstuff is available legally only from licensed providers.”

The butcher stopped his work, placed the cleaver on the table, and turned around. His movements were slow, deliberate. The dim light of the room brought the striated flesh of his right cheek and arm into relief.

“Purchase, production and possession of LP foodstuff not approved by established local authorities will result in penalties.”

He gazed down at the small animal before him. Then he raised his arm toward the animal, absently stripping the heavy glove from his hand. The cat pawed playfully at his fingers. The butcher cupped his hand around the back of the cat’s head, and then …

… began to stroke her behind the ears. The cat — the same cat who ran and hid from strangers, who hissed at and clawed and hated everyone in the world but me — lovingly arched her back and rubbed her cheek up inside of the figure’s arm.

“These penalties may include fines, loss of all meal rights, loss of property, corporeal punishment and community expulsion, and summary execution.”

The butcher stroked the cat a few more times, then froze, as though a thought had occurred to him. He raised his head, and looked directly at me. It was impossible to tell how old he was; those striations, those scars criss-crossing is skin hid any crow’s-feet he might have had at the corners of his eyes, or and sags at his jowls. The light in the room — or, rather, the light in the rooms perhaps? I don’t know — smothered everything else about his features except for the scars and the gleam of sharp, intelligent, maybe somewhat wild, eyes.

Eyes that neither blinked nor twitched before the butcher sprang …

“Public militia, local and county authorities thank you for your compliance and trustworthy citizenship.”

The hand that had a moment ago stroked the cat, that had moments earlier clenched a cleaver to butcher meat, now stretched out toward me. He was heavier than I am, but there must have been tight muscles under that mass, because I heard the clop of his work boots in quick succession across the concrete floor. He closed the distance between us quickly, barking words at me in a gravelly voice that only understood later. What happened next must have totaled less than a second.

I stepped backward, my calf bucking the coffee table. I somehow tore my eyes from the advancing figure — hurtling at me now with both arms upraised — to try and steady my balance as the table upended. The candle atop it, and the radio at its side, was toppling off. I got a good look at the candle as it tumbled to the floor. What I saw was a repeat of the broken/unbroken window in the living room: the fresh candle I’d pulled from the garage, it four wicks shining crown, was superimposed over another candle. This other was shorter by half, and only one wick was alight, the others having had burned down the base. I saw it just as liquid wax splashed from the melted divots and extinguished all the flames — of both the fresh and burned candles — at once.

After that, there’s really not much else to tell. I found myself scrambling in the dark, dreading the feel of a pair of strong hands gripping my throat. My arms akimbo, I struggled against nothing until I came to my senses and realized I was on the couch, peering back and forth in the gloom of a single candle perched on an end table to my left for a threat that was not there.

I’ll tell you that I scrambled for the Mag-Lite and played its beam across every angle I could find. But in the end, all I did find was my small tidy house, spilled candles, dried splashes of candle wax on the carpet, an upturned coffee table, and a wall separating a familiar and commonplace dining room and kitchen with hard wood floors from a familiar and commonplace living room with plain carpeting. No sign of cutting tables, no stray cuts of meat, no push cart heavy with an unthinkable load, and no freezers to preserve it. And no cat.

She hasn’t come home for months. Within the first few weeks of her disappearance, I challenged myself to light the four wicks of that block of wax. I can’t bring myself to do it.

I miss her. The cat. Stupid, yet I do. But then I guess we’ll be seeing each other again, eventually.

I’ve thought long and hard about ditching that candle. Dumping it in a lake, burying it in the desert. Anything other than setting light to it again — I don’t know what will happen if enough fire is applied to it. Yet, I can’t know if ridding myself of it will change anything.

I am certain things will go poorly in this world. I think humanity will transform the planet to our own determent. I think the conditions we live in will vie against us. I think we will continue to hate and slaughter each other until our wit’s end.

So that’s why I’ve decided to hang onto the candle. I don’t think I can reverse what’s ahead. But maybe I can find a way to rescue myself from what’s to come. You see, after all, the cat crossed over. She did, so I figure that if there’s going, then maybe, with presence of mind and lucky timing, there’s a chance of coming back. At least for me.

It’s become a litany to myself, and I chant it over and again: When the time’s is at hand, I will need the presence of mind; I will need to fight against panic and desperation; I must remember the month and the day; I must remember the butcher, and the words he yelled as he lunged wildly at me, arms outstretched, hands clutching toward me —not against me, I now understand, but beseechingly to me; and I must let his words echo in my head every day until say those words myself:

Please … the candle … don’t let it … go out!