Something Knocks on my Door Every Night at 12:16am

By Chef A10A10A10


It first happened last week, Thursday, March the 22nd. It was just after midnight and I was lying awake in bed when I first heard it.

knock knock knock

My first reaction was to look at my phone to see if someone tried calling or texting me. But there were no messages. I live alone in a quiet suburban neighborhood. I couldn’t think of any good reason why someone would be knocking at that time and I decided to ignore it.

But then it happened again the next night at around the same time. I went downstairs this time, took a deep breath, and looked through the peephole.

Nothing was there.

I was getting a little weirded out at this point and decided again not to open the door. But if it happened again tomorrow, I’d be more willing to investigate.

And it did happen again the next night. This time I made note of the specific time. 12:16 am. I was at the door in less than 10 seconds and promptly opened it. It was dark out there and it took a moment for my eyes to adjust. Was something moving in the shadows near the bushes?


There was nobody there. Nothing. I looked down the street in both directions but saw no movement. It was remarkably quiet out there but I didn’t hear any footsteps. I was confused. Who was knocking on my door every night? And for the first time, I didn’t think who, but what.

I thought back then to the day when the knocking first began and wondered if was related. March 22nd. I was at a funeral that day and I think I need to write a little about it here.

It was for my friend Pete. My best friend growing up. From about 8-15 we were inseparable. We started to lose touch 15-20. The last time I’d heard from him at all was 12 years ago when we were both 22. The strangest thing about his funeral was this… nobody else was there. Just me and a Priest. He was reading an incoherent bible verse when I interrupted him and asked him where everybody else was. He paused for a moment, looked at me, then went back to reading. It felt uncomfortable. I decided to leave.

So is that significant? Did I bring some spirit back with me from the funeral home? Or was I just losing my mind?

I decided I’d try and be quicker the next night. I’d wait near the door and have it opened in seconds. I wouldn’t allow any time for whatever it was to get away. But even this plan failed. It must have been a mere seconds after the knocking stopped before I opened the door. What would stand before me? Was it a neighborhood kid playing a prank? A mischievous spirit? A warning to me from the supernatural? All three options seemed equally unlikely.

But again, it was just empty space. Silence.

I had one more plan for the next night. I slipped outside at midnight and hid behind a neighbor’s car across the street. I had a very clear view of my front door and I’d be able to see whatever is knocking. I remember ducking behind the rear bumper of his car thinking what would my neighbors think if they see me? I looked at my phone. 12:15. It would happen any second now. I looked up and down the street for movement. I couldn’t see anybody. I held my phone in front of me. I watched it turn to 12:16, and still nothing was there. I was actually slightly disappointed for a fraction of a second…. But then I heard it.

knock knock knock

But I’m 100% certain as I write this… nobody was there. I was looking right at my door. But what I did see, for just a moment (and I can’t be certain) was saw a shadowy figure move away from my house. Not human. Not even something real or tangible. It was as though a shadow was moving down the sidewalk. But even I acknowledge… maybe it was just my mind playing tricks on me. I have no idea.

I have tried some other things the past few nights. I stood by my front door one night and recorded the knocks, and then played the recording to my coworkers the next day. I started thinking the knocking was just in my head. But they could hear it. They were confused as to why I was making them listen to it… but they could most certainly hear it.

And then two nights ago I decided to beat the knocking to the punch. I stood with my phone in front of me and opened the door at precisely 12:16, just to see what would happen.

But again, there was nothing there. In fact, the knocking didn’t even happen this time. So if I stood with the door open at 12:16, the knocking would be prevented. What could that mean? And here’s the stranger thing… the knocking did wake me up that morning at 7:07 am. Why 7:07 am this time? Why wouldn’t the knocking happen if I stood with the door open? I have no idea. I’m lost. I’m really really lost.

I’m left very confused because I can’t help but think that maybe there’s some sort of secret code I’m supposed to work out. There’s the date, March 22nd. But also, what about the number of knocks on the door? It’s always three. Does that mean anything? The times the knocking occurs is always 12:16 and 7:07. Do those times represent something?

If anyone thinks of anything, please comment below. I’ll be reading and am open to advice. Maybe I can even try some of your ideas out tonight.

At 12:16 am.

It’s been two nights since I last posted.

On the first of those nights, I simply ignored the knocking again. I was still reading through the comments on my nosleep submission and trying to figure out what to do next.

Some Redditors suggested that, given that the knocking didn’t happen when the door was opened, that I just permanently leave my front door open. But that just seems ridiculous as far as I’m concerned. This is the front door to my house. Anybody could just walk in, let alone rats, raccoons, insects, etc. No, that wasn’t a strong long-term solution.

Others suggested ideas like setting up infrared cameras, leaving a fresh coat of paint on the door to see if prints are left, and even contacting a priest. I thought about maybe eventually resorting to those options.

But a post by u/houseofpwncakes set me on a different path. He suggested I look at Bible passages that match up to the time the knocking occurred. 12:16 and 7:07. Specifically, revelations 12:16 from the bible was recommended. While I was unable to find relevance in that passage, it got me looking into other biblical passages.

Acts 12:16 “But Peter kept on knocking, and when they opened the door and saw him, they were astonished.”

I mean, that couldn’t possibly just be a coincidence, could it? I had been at my friend Pete’s funeral the first day the knocking began. And the passage directly references the knocking.

The second time the knocking occurred was 7:07. After a little digging, I was able to find this passage.

Matthew 7:7 “Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you.”

The part I focused on was “knock, and it will be opened to you.” Does that mean I should knock back (as some Redditors suggested) and something will happen? If I put it all together… it appears that it really is the spirit of my former friend Pete who was knocking on the door. If I knock back and then open the door, what I see will be “astonishing.”

I decided to give it a try last night.

I was standing by my door at 12:15, waiting…

I was looking at the clock when it clicked over to 12:16, and then I heard it same as usual.

knock knock knock

I raised my hand and knocked back immediately. Three times.

Then I opened the door.

And I was astonished.

What stood before me I could barely see. Light refracted off of it in a strange manner and made it difficult to focus on. It was mostly a shadow and somewhat transparent. It looked both somewhat familiar while at the same time alien from this world. It had a humanoid form but looked tormented, abominable, and odious.

In my state of repulsion and fear, it took me a moment to recognize that somewhere deep down inside this monstrosity was what remained of my friend Pete. It was him. No question.

He didn’t speak to me. Instead, we could sort of see each other’s thoughts. That’s the best way I could explain it.

And I saw all the evil that Pete had done. The reason that nobody other than myself showed up to his funeral. He had been a monster in his adult life. The worst that humanity had to offer. Rape, violence, torture, murder. I saw it all. Most of it he had never even been caught for. But it was a murder that eventually got him put in jail. He was killed there, by another inmate. I saw myself at his funeral, alone, as the Priest read aloud Genesis 3:22, describing when mankind first became aware of the difference between good and evil.

And what happened next was an even worse experience. Both Pete and I were looking at the things that I had done wrong in life. I’m not going to own up to them here. They may pale in comparison to what Pete had done… but I saw how extreme my flaws had become. How badly I’d been corrupted.

The shadowy figure of what used to be my friend Pete held up a hand to wave. I saw the anguish and agony in his eyes… and then he vanished into thin air.

I stood looking into the dark empty yard of my house for at least a minute before quietly shutting the door.

So what did all of this mean? Was it a warning? If I don’t clean up my ways, I’ll also one day become the torturous form that stood before me? How do I start? Should I yell from my window asking a kid to buy the biggest goose in town and deliver it to the Cratchit family?

I’ve been thinking back to my childhood with Pete. Were there any signs of what he’d become? Why hadn’t I ever heard about his crimes? How did I even hear about his funeral? I don’t use any social media. I didn’t receive a letter or a phone call. I just somehow showed up there.

And why did he choose to come and warn me? Because we were friends? Because I was the only person to show up to his funeral?

I wasn’t sure. There wouldn’t be answers. And then I figured out that there was only one thing I could do.

Try and be better.

I did receive another knock yesterday. And I’m certain it will be the last time he ever knocks on my door. One final message. It occurred at 5:17.

It took a bit of digging, but it translates to 17:17 on the 24-hour clock.

I looked at the passage I’m certain he was showing me and smiled. And I think I can make sense of it. I think it all makes sense now.

Proverbs 17:17: A friend is always loyal, and a brother is born to help in time of need.

1,000 Dark Jokes to Make Your Soul Rot

By Chef JRHEvilInc/Joel R. Hunt


//Story contains references to animal cruelty, sexual assault, and other abuse.

Apparently, there’s a joke book called ‘1000 Dark Jokes to Make Your Soul Rot’, and I was wondering if anyone here had heard of it, because I seriously want to get my hands on a copy.

I’ve been into dark humour for as long as I can remember. No topic is off-limits. Terrorism. Slavery. Dead babies. Whatever. I don’t care about things being offensive; as long as it’s a good joke, I’m up for it.

So when I heard about ‘1000 Dark Jokes’, I knew I wanted to read it. The problem is, it doesn’t seem to exist anywhere. I’ve searched for hours online, I’ve looked on Amazon and Waterstones, I’ve scoured the local bookshops and libraries (Side note – I discovered that libraries are still a thing!). I even contacted some of the biggest libraries in the country and asked them to search through their stock. Nothing. There wasn’t a scrap of evidence that this book had ever been written.

Except for one forum. Continue reading “1,000 Dark Jokes to Make Your Soul Rot”

Someone Knocks on my Door Every Night

By Chef BloomMilk


Around last Wednesday on the 20th my roommates and I finished moving into our new apartment. The place is pretty nice, nothing too fancy, but a good size for the three of us. Our apartment has a nice open kitchen and family room, and connecting to it is a narrow hallway with all of our bedrooms. Every night since we moved in has been really odd though. Continue reading “Someone Knocks on my Door Every Night”

The Other One

By Chef Unxmaal


Sometimes things do not go as planned. The heist certainly did not. I meant it to be a simple job — masks, a few guns, fast horses, a big score at the end.

The big dumb deputy got Jim in the back, about a minute in. By then there was smoke in the air, screaming, lots of noise. I always knew Jim would die of a bullet, most likely in the back. I think he knew the same. I should have known that the sheriff would post a deputy at the bank. It made no sense. We had spent the previous night torching the Canaveras Ranch, shot old man Canaveras, shot his ranch hands, shot the wife and children. Let one run to town with a hole in her arm, in her bloody nightgown, so as to attract attention back to the ranch. Then we rode hard around the Gap to town, and waited until the kid rode up, nearly dead, screaming and hollering about murder.  Continue reading “The Other One”


By Chef One Page Wonder

Pride. That’s the problem with the younger generation, they simply don’t take pride in their work. They come to my door daily, peddling their goods, but they don’t have their hearts in it. At least, not like people used to- not like I still do. People aren’t interested in alarm systems or credit card services, they’re interested in service. They want to know that they can count on someone to keep their business safe at night, or to set them up with a good interest rate off the bat. You shouldn’t have to negotiate these things. It’s simply not necessary to nickel and dime someone. You take care of your customers and they take care of you. That’s how business is done. I’ve been in business for a long time and the last thing I need is some punk half-heartedly trying to explain how a website will generate a positive R-O-I while intermittently trailing off to read his latest text message.

Maybe that makes me a dinosaur, a relic in my own time. Take this kid, for instance. He’s trying to tell me that getting people to like me on Book Face will help me generate more revenue. Did he not see the sign on the door? Of course not, and that’s the problem. He’s trying to sell me something. He doesn’t care who I am or what I do. He wants a sale and he’s wasting valuable time. Or maybe his time isn’t valuable, but nevertheless, the clock ticks and all he can do is prattle on about likes and fans and statuses, the poor soul. He’s dismissed at once.

But time marches on.

It finds me sitting here with the Lowes. The poor couple. He’s devastated. He tries to maintain his composure, but his shoulders are listing and it’s clear he hasn’t slept. She doesn’t fair well either. He urges her to lift her chin as I pass the gilded box of tissue. He’s afraid of me. It’s been so long since he met someone like me- someone who takes pride- that he suspects me of just being another man bent on making a dollar.

This wasn’t their fault. Tragedy sought them out and found them unprepared. Emotionally. Financially. They simply aren’t equipped to handle this. Not that you could prepare for a tragedy of this nature. But, fortunately for them, I am.

“There, there, Mrs. Lowe. It’s going to be okay. This is came as a shock to both of you. I cannot say that I know how you feel, but I can tell you that Thanos & Sons has been in business for over eighty-five years. I’ve personally dealt with similar situations. Your loss will take a long time to get over, but I am here for you in the short term. Over the next few days, I am personally at your disposal. I will arrange every detail and see that everything is attended to.”

“Do we have to choose the casket now?” she asks.

“We have an assortment of caskets that cater to every taste and budget, yes, but before we do that, why don’t you take a moment to tell me about Joshua. I never had the opportunity to meet him, so it’s the most we can do to make sure that we say goodbye to him as he would have wanted.”

They both take a moment to digest what I have just told them, but I meant what I said. Above all else, we at Thanos & Sons make sure that we do everything in our power to please our client. Unfortunately, in our line of work, our clients are unable to speak for themselves.

“He was wonderful,” he starts, catching himself to keep from breaking down. He loved playing outside, he was smart, inquisitive, nice, honest . . . we loved him more than anything in the world.”

He reaches for her hand and I produce a handkerchief. They did love him more than anything, he wasn’t lying when he said that. Of course, every parent says that in my presence, they’d appear barbaric not too, but you’d be surprised how many of them leave the burial looking as though a tremendous weight were suddenly lifted from their shoulders. We strive to deliver a stellar service to all of our clients, of course, but some we truly go above and beyond for.

“There, there, I’m sure he was,” I say as the tears begin to ebb. “I’m afraid it’s getting late, so I don’t have time to explain the finer points, but what would you say if I told you we could forgo with these preparations all together?”

“What are you saying?” He says brashly. “Are you suggesting that we just dump him somewhere to save a buck or two? This is our son for God’s sake!”

“No, of course not.” I respond immediately. He must really think I’m a monster if that’s the first thought he conjured up. But why shouldn’t he think of me as a monster. I do have his son’s body in my basement after all. “No, Mr. Lowe, exactly the opposite. You see, I’ve had an opportunity to examine your son. He is pristine and I am sure we can all agree that this was not his time.”

They nod in agreement over it not being his time, but it’s clear that they do not understand. “But the clock is ticking, so let me explain the best I can. You see, I believe you when you say that you loved him more than anything. Just like I know you believe me when I say that it simply was not his time. That’s why his body is so immaculate; it isn’t meant to be put into the ground.”

They look at each other now, each wondering if the other is thinking the same impossible thought. “Cutting to the point,” I add, “the fact of the matter is that he can be brought back.”

That did it, what they both wanted and simultaneously dreaded. “I know it sounds impossible, but it’s true. Your son wants to be called back to this world and you have the power to do it.”

“But how,” he finally asks. “We all know that’s not possible otherwise people would be coming back left and right. Are you trying to play us for fools?!”

“No, I assure you I’m not.” I say cautiously. It’s sad, really, the world being as it is, where you would actually suspect someone of taking advantage of you over the death of a child. “But every second is crucial and I’m afraid I’m running out of time. You see, it’s like I said: he isn’t meant to be put into the ground and your love for him can bring him back. This is no more a tragedy than a fluke of the clock, so to speak.”

“And how much to you intend to rob us of for this service?” He interrupts.

“Mr. Lowe, please. This is an ancient practice that people in my trade have been practicing for years. But you are correct on one point, this will cost you something. You see, in order to get back that which you love the most, you will have to sacrifice that which you hate the most.”

“Now I’m really confused,” she says. “What do you mean we have to give up what we hate the most?”

“It’s just like I said, so tell me: what do you hate the most?”

They pause, but only for a second. “Our debts,” they both say. It’s funny, it only ever takes someone a second to think of what they hate the most. Ask someone to name what they are most grateful for and they may take minutes to answer.

“Your debt?” I confirm and they both nod emphatically. “Well, then it’s simple. You hand over your debts to me and I will return Joshua to you.”

“You’re saying that you can bring Joshua back to us alive like before, but in order for that to happen, we have to give up a burden?” she says. “This doesn’t make any sense at all!”

“It’s like I said before. This is a fluke, this was not supposed to happen. Now because you are good parents and truly love him, he will be returned to you. The giving up a burden part is considered a recompense, a settlement of sorts, for your unnecessary suffering. Believe me, this is all standard, I’ve mediated these situations before. It comes with the job.”

“Now,” I continue, “I can begin at once, I just need you to fill out this short form detailing the debts you’d like to surrender to me and sign this declaration that the debts you surrender are for the return of the one you love the most.”

She examines the document. “It’s all standard boilerplate,” I add to speed up the process, but she shakes her head.

“I’m sorry,” she says. “I don’t believe for a second that this was Joshua’s time to go, but this isn’t right either. I want him back more than anything, but this just seems wrong to me.”

I excuse myself as Mr. Lowe tries to dissuade her. He’s clearly angry, but this only brings on another fit on her part. They really weren’t prepared for any of this.

I return to find them both standing. She’s sobbing. He shakes my hand with an unsteady grip. “I’m sorry,” he says, “but this is too much for us right now. You’ll understand if we make other arrangements?”

“Of course,” I answer. “But if you feel as though you are going to change your mind, please do it quickly, our window is closing.”

The clock strikes nine.

I open the door to find Mr. Lowe presenting the document with a wavering hand. “Here,” he says, “take it.”

I peruse it to find that it has been duly executed. “These are both of your signatures,” I ask. He nods. “Then if you both agree, I will set to work at once. Be here at noon tomorrow and be prepared to take Joshua home.”

Mr. Lowe lingers on the porch for a second unsure if he should say anything. But in the end he just nods and turns into the night.

It’s nearing 11:30 in the morning by the time I have Joshua cleaned and dressed. The clothes are not his and perhaps they’re a bit dated, but they fit well enough. He doesn’t speak, but he is already responding to simple commands. The doorbell rings and he follows me up from the basement as instructed.

We meet the Lowes at the door. They burst into tears at the sight of him. Mrs. Lowe takes him in her arms and rushes him to their car without so much as a hello. Mr. Lowe starts to follow, but turns to shake my hand and thank me. “But this is real, right?” He asks after a thoughtful pause.

“Just like I explained last night. He wasn’t meant to go; it wasn’t his time. But let me caution you, Joshua has been through a lot. It might take a few days for him to return to normal. He’s still cool to the touch and he may refuse to eat at first, but that’s just his body readjusting itself.”

“Is there anything else we can do?” he asks.

“Just love him and treat him like he’s recovering from the flu,” I say. “Welcome him back gently.”

It’s 6:17 the next morning when Mr. Lowe calls. “He won’t stop talking,” he says. I try to assure him that these things take time. That Joshua has been through a lot. “Look, I don’t know what you did to him, but I’m coming over right now and I want you to explain this to me step by step.

Mr. Lowe must have had a devil on his tail because he arrives by 6:38. “Come in,” I say, “I’ve prepared some tea.” I lead him to the receiving room and pour us each a cup. He cradles it in his hands. “Why won’t he stop talking?” he asks.

“It’s like I said, he wasn’t gone long, but he needs to readjust to his body. It takes time.”

“You don’t understand,” he replies emphatically. “Joshua was non-verbal. The doctors said it was autism and a lot of other jargon, they said he’d never progress mentally beyond a two year old. Now he won’t stop talking. He kept us up the entire night!”

If I hadn’t been in this business so long, I might be taken aback. “It’s the recompense,” I say. “You see, you simply asked for your debts to be forgiven. Debt is a relatively new phenomenon in this business and apparently the makers of this deal do not put a lot of weight in money. So in order to right the fluke, they gave you back your son as he should have been. I once serviced a client whose daughter was born with a terrible disfigurement. When it came time for recompense, she only stated that the thing she hated most was her daughter’s suffering in life. I can’t name names, but she grew up to become a famous starlet.”

“But it’s not like that!” he insists. “Listen to me, he’s talking, but he’s saying terrible things. He called my wife a harlot. He said that I wasn’t his father. He said adulterers burn alone. You call that recompense? What did you do to him!”

“Mr. Lowe, please. You are obviously quite upset and I understand why. However, you must understand that the makers of this deal are just. They returned Joshua to correct a wrong. I cannot claim to speak for them or to understand their ways, but we must trust them.”

“But why is he saying these things?” Mr. Lowe asks pleadingly.

“These things take time, Mr. Lowe. Joshua’s brain is no doubt struggling to make sense of what has happened. I’m sure that there wasn’t any meaning behind his words. Now Joshua and Mrs. Lowe need you,” I add, “being with them is the best thing you can do right now. Of course you can call me if anything else unusual happens, but I honestly wouldn’t worry about it.”

I show Mr. Lowe to the door.

It has been a busy day. It’s nearly eight o’clock by the time I have the viewing room in proper order. It’s then that I hear the door chime. Eight is a strange hour for visitors, but in my business you always have to be prepared for new clients. I cross to the receiving room to find Joshua standing by the front door.

“Hello, Joshua,” I say. He doesn’t respond. “So you’ve said your peace then?” He shuffles past me, his eyes intent on the basement door.

Mrs. Lowe bursts into the room not a minute later. She’s clearly upset and holds a blood soaked towel to her forearm.

“Is he here?” she shouts demandingly. Mr. Lowe is not long on her tail.

“Mrs. Lowe, it’s good to see you again. Yes, Joshua is here, though I must say that it was a surprise to see him. Shall I get him for you?”

“No,” she insists, “you can keep him for all I care. That thing you gave us isn’t our son.” She falters to her knees and breaks into a guttural sob.

“Is it true?” Mr. Lowe asks me. His voice is cold and his face wears a matching pallor.

“Is what true, Mr. Lowe?” I ask.

“The things Joshua said. He continued talking. He said I was a fool, that he pitied me for not knowing. I didn’t know what he was talking about, so I asked him. He said I was too pathetic to save him. Then he laughed again and that’s when he bit her and took off running. You need to tell me what’s going on here.”

Mrs. Lowe continues sobbing. The blood from her arm threatens to soil the carpet as dark fissures spider their way up her arm. Mrs. Lowe’s clock is winding down.

“Mr. Lowe, it’s like I said. It wasn’t Joshua’s time. Perhaps you could have saved him. Perhaps, if you’d known you could have prevented his death.” Joshua was right, Mr. Lowe is clueless to the ways of this world, good men generally are.

His gaze follows mine to Mrs. Lowe.

“No,” he says, “I don’t believe it.”

Mrs. Lowe’s sob intensifies. “I didn’t mean for it to happen,” she says. “I didn’t know what I was doing. I tucked him in and the next thing I know there’s a pillow over his face and I can’t bring myself to take it away. I was so exhausted I couldn’t think, I just knew I couldn’t stand another day of taking the tantrums or the diapers or the stress because none of it would make him better.”

Mrs. Lowe attempts to wipe the tears from her eyes and that’s when she takes sight of her arm. It’s turned entirely black. She screams.

“What’s wrong with me?” she asks pleadingly. Mr. Lowe cannot look at her. Her eyes dart frantically about the room until they meet mine. “What did he do to me?” she asks pleadingly.

“Mrs. Lowe, it’s like I said before, the makers of this deal are just. Joshua was not meant to be taken from this world and that decision was not yours to make. But that is neither here nor there now. Joshua bit you and the wound is necrotizing. Nothing can be done for that.”

“I’m dying?” she asks.

“We’re all dying, Mrs. Lowe, it’s really a question of timing.”

“Then call me an ambulance, I need to go to the hospital,” she pleads.

People’s selfishness never ceases to surprise me and I see more than my fair share of it in my business. But a few grains in the hourglass and she wants nothing more than to save herself. She should be repenting, she of all people should know that filicides burn forever.

Mr. Lowe steps away. I nod at him, he trusts my professionalism, that I will see to the details with the care and competence I show all of my clients. With that he turns to the door. He has suffered more than anyone when you think about it, but as he leaves a perceptive man would notice the subtle, but long dormant spring in his step.

“So that’s it then, you’re not going to help me?” Mrs. Lowe asks me spitefully.

“Of course I am, Mrs. Lowe, I wouldn’t dream of turning my back on you,” I say to her relief. “I have every intention of helping you. Now tell me, how do you feel about mahogany?”

Twin Sense

By Chef Youhaveoneday


//Story contains themes of sexual violence.

When Sunny came home there were clouds in the sky. Fitting, I thought. I pressed my nose against the long living room window as my parents barreled down the stairs. The neighbors stood in their yards watching as the wide, silver van pulled down the street toward our driveway. It almost crept across the pavement, as if to purposely draw attention to its contents. The giant Oak tree dividing our lawn from the Bryant’s, shook its limbs. It waved back and forth in anticipation of being united with its best friend again. Wiping the moist fog off of the window, I held my breath and could see her tiny head bobbing with the faults in the road from the back seat. Sunny’s curly, jet black hair covered her pale face.

“Scarlett, don’t stare” My father said checking his tie in the mirror next to the door, “It will be best for your sister if everything is completely normal like before she left.” Of all people Sunny knew that nothing was normal before she went to the rehabilitation center, or whatever they call it, but my mother was crying again and my father was pacing, so I hopped off of the windowsill and slipped into my sandals.

“Honey, come here.” My mother said motioning towards the front door. “Here she comes.” I shuffled toward her as the man driving Sunny helped her out of the van. A woman with a clipboard was two steps ahead of them, smiling from ear to ear.

“Hello, Mr. and Mrs. Rose!” The lady said shaking my father’s hand. “And let me guess, this is Scarlett?” I held out my hand, but the woman just grabbed me for a big hug. I tried to see Sunny over her shoulder but I was immediately pulled back. “Your sister has told me so much about you. I have a twin too, but he’s my brother so of course we’re not identical.” I just smiled and acted interested. Pushing onto my tiptoes, I caught a glimpse of Sunny but the man that was driving was bent over talking to her. “My name is Joanie Berks. I was Sunny’s lead counselor at the hospital. Your daughter is a treasure.”

“We’re really glad to have her back.” My father said. He was never one for raw emotion. I pushed past Mrs. Berks and ran up to Sunny. My mother tried to grab the sleeve of my shirt but I was gone. The man wasn’t finished talking to her but I didn’t care.

“Sunny!” I yelled, and grabbed her hand, squeezing it three times. “I missed you so-much.“ Sunny stared at the ground and I slowly let go. For the first time in my life, I didn’t feel like I was looking in the mirror as I stared at her face. My twelve-year-old twin sister had changed into an adult. The navy blue rings under her pink eyes held loose on her pale face. I brushed a curl off of her translucent forehead. That was the only way most people could tell the difference between us. I had always preferred my hair straight, but Sunny never cared enough to change it. Her bony shoulders that once protruded out of her shirt hung, tired and calm from her thin neck. I wanted to wake her up or at least make her smile. “Sunny, wait till you see our bedroom–“

“Scarlett.” Mrs. Berks said as she scurried down our sidewalk to the driveway. “Sunny needs to relax. Trust me, your sister is still in there but it will take quiet love and calm attention for her to adjust.”

“Of course she is still in there.” The man that had driven the van said. His hands were massive and she squeezed onto his thumb as he spoke. “She never left, did you Sun?” My sister looked up with a blank stare. I glanced back at my parents, anxiously. My mother had begun to cry again and turned her face. My dad stood over me with a firm grip on my collar bone.

“Sunny?” I whispered and my father tightened his grasp. “Mom and dad took our bunk beds down.“

“She’ll see the room, Scarlett.” My dad said. “Your sister will be right in, how about you go wait inside while we finish talking to Mrs. Berks.” I didn’t understand why everyone was acting so serious. I mean I knew there was an accident and Sunny was hurt but she was still my twin sister. I reluctantly stammered to the house. Taking a look over my shoulder, I saw Sunny peek at me, and I smiled.

I stared at my family out of my bedroom window and remembered watching the day Sunny was taken out on a stretcher. I thought about all of the things that could have happened to Sunny that day other than her falling out of a tree. I had gone over the afternoon a million times in my head for three months and never understood why everyone made such a big deal out of the whole thing. Sure there was blood and bruises but Sunny wasn’t even crying.

“Scarlett, pull down the blinds. Sunny needs to take a little nap before dinner.” My father said walking into my bedroom. I hopped off of my desk and turned the shades down. My room was dark but I saw Sunny walk out behind my dad. She climbed into bed, with her clothes on and I walked over to my mother who stood in the doorway.

“Can I stay in here with her?” I asked, looking up at my mother’s gloomy face. She glanced at my father for an answer.

“Sunny needs her sleep, you can lay down in your bed too but no talking.” My father replied pulling the covers over my sister. “You’ll have plenty of time to talk, but she needs quiet time now sweetheart.”

“Ok, I promise.” I said flipping my sandals off and falling onto my comforter.

“And Scarlett,” My mother spoke up. “were not going to talk about the accident ok? Sunny needs to move on.”

“Sure, Mom.” I said. “She’ll climb again, don’t worry.” My mother looked away slowly and walked out of the room. My father stood up and put his hand on my head gently.

“We love you both very much.” My dad said looking back and forth between us. “Your mother and I are very lucky to have you girls. I just want to make sure you know that.” Sunny’s eyes were closed and I reached up to grab my father’s hand.

“We know, daddy.” I said.

“Have a great nap girls, I’ll be back to wake you before dinner.” My father closed our door, leaving a small crack of light, streaming in from the hallway. The shadows from the large Oak tree outside danced around our room as if they had a secret to tell.

“Sunny.” I whispered. “Sunny.” She rustled her body and turned around facing the wall. We slept right through dinner and into the morning.

The next few weeks were fairly normal. Rose normal that is. The police had stopped by a few times and mom was always on the phone. I gave Sunny her space. To be honest it wasn’t much different than before she left. It was no secret to anyone that Sunny and I were different but most of it was on the outside. Besides, Dad always said, ‘it’s what’s on the inside that really matters.’

“Should I keep the bangs?” I asked Sunny as I stared in our bedroom mirror. I began to pull the artificially straightened strands of hair off my eyebrows. “You know you can come to the party. Joanna said anyone can come.”

Sunny paused from her journaling. Lying on the ground in front of me she closed her notebook and looked up into the mirror.

“I’m tired.” Sunny answered rising to her knees.

“Hey, don’t say I didn’t try.” I said and Sunny stared into the base of the mirror. “I won’t stay long. Do you want to watch a movie when I get back tonight?” I asked, trying my hardest to recover.

“Maybe.” She pushed herself to her feet. “I don’t think I’ll be up much longer.” Sunny grabbed her notebook and slid it under her pillow. “But thanks for asking.”

“What do you write in that thing anyway Sun?” I asked unplugging the straightener and watching her glide behind me. “I mean, is it just a journal or what?”

“Uh-yeah. Tell Jo-Jo I say hi.” Sunny reached back under the pillow and picked up her journal. She began to walk out of the bedroom. “And keep the bangs.” I smirked into the mirror and ruffled my forehead, releasing the tresses from behind my ears.

Joanna’s party was boring and I couldn’t stop thinking about the contents of Sunny’s journal. Mrs. Kline walked down to the basement every five minutes pretending to bring snacks or take pictures. We all knew that she was just checking to make sure no one was making out. I wasn’t in the mood anyway. As I looked around the room at the groups of girls caked with makeup and popping their hips I felt disgusting. Guilty by association. The few boys that sat on the couch watching the television were cautiously looking around the room at their prey.

“Mrs. Kline.” I said as the burly woman shuffled past me with an empty trash bag. “Is there a restroom down here?”

“It’s upstairs to the right, pumpkin.” She responded. “And Scarlett–”

“Yes?” I replied walking up the stairs.

“How’s Sunny?” Most of the kids at the party turned and looked at me, avoiding eye contact, but anxiously awaiting my response.

“She’s great.” I said glancing around the room. Everyone pretended to go back to what they were doing. I climbed the stained carpet staircase. Mrs. Kline was the Queen of Gossip in my neighborhood. As I approached the bathroom I heard the voices behind the locked door.

“She tried to commit suicide.” A girl’s voice said. I could see the shadow of moving feet coming from the light under the door. “My Mom said there was blood everywhere.”

“How did she do it?” The other voice asked. “Hanging? Overdose?”

“Slitting her wrists. I’m almost positive.”

“No way. Sunny didn’t do that.” A third voice added. “There were screams.” I leaned against the wall and took a deep breath, letting it out silently. “You don’t scream if you try to do it yourself. Someone tried to kill her. I was riding my bike outside their house that day.”

“You can scream from suicide.” The first girl said, standing by her argument.

“Not if you do it right. Trust me; I saw her run through her garage door. Well, I guess she was limping. The Roses know the truth. They just don’t want to draw attention to it. Plus Joanna said her Mom knew a lady at the hospital.”

“Scarlett knows. She’s been so weird lately. Maybe she tried to kill Sunny.” The girls laughed. “My mom said that she didn’t visit her sister once while she was in the hospital.” My hands were trembling wildly. My parents wouldn’t let me visit Sunny after the accident. They said that she needed her time to recover. My face burnt in resentment and humiliation. I regained my balance, pushing myself off of the wall and searched for an exit. I swung open the creaking screen door on the side of the house and heard Joanna and the other girls laughing down the hall as it whipped closed behind me.

I decided that Sunny had to talk. We were about to go to Middle school and I couldn’t bear to be in the dark. If she didn’t fall off our oak tree than I needed to know.

“Sunny wake up!” I said as I barged past my dad sleeping on the couch and pushed open the bedroom door. I flipped on the lights. Sunny shielded her eyes and turned to look at me.

“I was awake.” She replied squinting. I sat on the end of her bed.

“What happened to you on the day of the accident?” I asked staring into her eyes. She looked through me. “I know mom and dad said I wasn’t allowed to talk about it but Joanna said that you tried to kill yourself and Katie heard that someone tried to kill you. Was it an accident or not?”

Sunny continued to fix her eyes on the wall through me. I was just caught in the crossfire of her stare. The little bit of color that had come to her face over the past two weeks had vanished.

“I-” Sunny’s voice gave out. A small cracking noise gargled up from her throat. She wasn’t crying, but her body did not want to answer because of something rooted deep inside. “I don’t know.” Her eyes looked into mine now.

“Why can’t you tell me? Why can’t I know? Why do you write in that journal?” I reached for her pillow and clutched the notebook, pulling it to my chest. She began to cry, and I saw feeling leak back into my numb sister like the blood rushing back into a tingly leg that has fallen into a deep sleep. “Sunny please.” I handed her the pad. “Please.”

“It’s all here.” She handed the journal back to me. I studied the cover of the notebook as it fell into my lap. There were deep brown creases inside the tanned, rough binder. The diary that Sunny had had for two weeks looked like it had been used for two years. I ran my hand along the tips of the pages. Sunny slid under her covers and closed her eyes. I held the book close and fell asleep on top of my covers reading.

The next day when I woke up I could hear rain outside. I grabbed the journal, changed into sweats and walked cautiously down the stairs.

“Hey Scarlett, how was your sleep?” My mom asked. She stood over the stove cooking scrambled eggs and cheese, Sunny’s favorite. “Dad said you were home pretty early.”

“It was ok.” I answered. “Where’s Sunny?”

“She was playing in the back yard.” My mother said.

“Isn’t it raining?” I asked.

“It was drizzling a bit, your father is under the umbrella doing some work out there.” My mother replied. “Go see what they’re doing and can you tell them that breakfast is almost ready?” I walked through my house and out the garage door. The diary was still under my arm. My father sat, reading a book, at the table outside.

“Hey Dad. Where’s Sun?” I asked.

“She’s up in her tree, babe!” He replied. “Can you believe it?” Sunny hadn’t climbed her massive Oak tree since the day she left for the hospital.

“Yeah.” I said. “Oh, Mom said breakfast was ready. I’ll go get Sunny and meet you in there.” I ran across the yard to the base of Sunny’s tree. I put the journal into the back of my sweats and started to climb. This was not my thing. As I got higher I saw Sunny’s legs dangling over her favorite branch at the top. I made it to a safe place to sit and looked up at her.

“Hey” Sunny said as I caught my breath.

“Breakfast is ready.” I wheezed in between gulps of air.

“Thanks, I’m not hungry.” Sunny knew we were having scrambled eggs.

“I read it all.” I said staring at her big brown eyes.

“Oh.” She stared straight forward.

“I won’t tell anyone.” I said.

“I know.” Sunny finally looked at me.

“Can I do anything to help?” I asked.


“Do mom and dad know who did it?” I continued.


“Do they know that you didn’t fall?”

“I did fall.”

“Do they know about Mr. Bryant after the fall?”


“Do they know you were–”


“Oh god, Sunny, I am so sorry.” We both were crying. “You have to tell them, they could help.”

“I will tell them some day but I can’t now. He told me he would do it again if I told anyone. He told me he would do it to you.”

“Sunny, he can’t hurt anyone if we tell mom and dad. The police are looking for the man who did it right now all you have to do is tell them and we’ll never see him again.” I said through tears. “Please.”

“I’m scared, Scarlett.” Sunny cried. “I’m scared.” I climbed up to her branch and sat next to her. Rubbing her back, I could barely see through my tears the Bryant family eating breakfast through their living room window. Sunny shook in my arms and I knew something had to be done. I couldn’t let my sister live in fear forever. “If I hadn’t have fallen it wouldn’t have happened. I’ve never slipped on this tree. When I woke up he was on top of me.” Sunny caught her breath, “It was so heavy Scarlett, I didn’t know what do. I tried to scream but nothing would come out of my throat. He smelled like grass and anger. The hanging limbs and leaves of the tree covered me and I even watched kids walking down the sidewalk through the branches. I could only hear his loud panting. It was warm, but I was frozen. My fingertips couldn’t move and I felt like I was paralyzed. I tasted blood in my mouth, and he looked me directly into my eyes when I finally gave up.”

“Oh God.” I said, but she had released herself from my embrace.

“When I woke up he was gone and I was just lying there.”

“How did you tell mom?” I asked.

“They could tell from the blood.” Sunny replied calmly. “They did a ton of tests on me at the hospital and told mom and dad what happened. I told them that I couldn’t remember who did it. We decided then to tell everyone that I just fell out of this tree.”

“And Mrs. Berks?” I asked, “And the other guy that dropped you off?”

“They tried to get a name out of me.” She replied, “Joanie did a bunch of tests on me but the other doctors insisted on letting me just recover.”

“So the police–“ I started.

“The police will never find out. Not unless I tell them. No one saw it happen and you know how nice Mr. Bryant is to our family. No one would ever guess it was him.”

“But we can–“ Again I began.

“No we can’t Scarlett. He told me, that day when he pinned me into the earth. He told me he would find me.” I rested my head on Sunny’s lap. I was lost and now she consoled me. How could someone do this to my sister and why was she so sure we couldn’t tell? She was so strong. Our father walked through the yard toward the base of the tree.

“Hey girls!” he yelled up, “Breakfast is getting cold, let’s go.” I set the notebook with the other books and items that Sunny kept lodged up on a platform she had nailed onto her branch. I followed her path down the enormous tree. When the rain hit my face as we walked through the yard I grabbed Sunny’s hand. I squeezed it three times.

“You said in the notebook that you wanted to start a fire.” I said as we crawled into bed that night. “What does that mean?”

“The tree.” She replied. “I wanted to burn it down, and then maybe mom and dad would build us a fence.”

“But you love that tree Sun.” I pressed.

“Scarlett, it was just something I wrote. Joanie told me that writing my feelings would help me.” She said. I flipped the night light off and passed out into my pillow. It had been a long day and finally I could sleep peacefully, knowing the truth.

“Wake up.” Sunny stood over me with a sweatshirt on. “Come on Scarlett, wake up.”

“What time is it?” I asked rubbing my eyes and sitting up.

“If Joanie said that writing my feelings would help me then actually doing them would–“

“Slow down Sunny. What are you doing?”

“We have to burn down the Oak. If you don’t help me then I’ll do it myself.”

“But Sun.“

“No, it got me into this mess. If I hadn’t fallen then he couldn’t have done it. Are you going to help or not?”

“Sunny, we can’t start a fire. What would we even use?”

“I already snuck down to the garage. I found lighter fluid and Dad’s matches.” She said.

“But it rained today. It will be wet.” I argued.

“I have a big pile of all of Mom and Dad’s old newspapers.” Sunny replied and for the first time since she had come home I could see excitement boiling through her. “We can crumple them up and light them.”

“Sunny, will it really help? And plus we could get in–“

“In trouble? Only if they caught us, which they won’t because when the firemen come we will be in bed, sound asleep.

“But what if it spread to our house?” I asked.

“Over fifty yards of wet grass?” She replied, clearly Sunny had thought this out. “Come on Scarlett, please help me.”

“I’m up, I’m up.” I said, walking to the closet. “We’re gonna need to wear all black, like in the movies.”

“I’m way ahead of you!” Sunny threw me a black turtle neck and pants.

“Is the stuff in the garage still?” I asked “I can’t believe I’m actually doing this.”

“Nope, it’s all out there at the base of the tree, ready to go.”

Growing up, we had memorized the steps down the stairs and through our house so that we wouldn’t hit the creaks. Finally, it came into good use. As Sunny slipped the back sliding door open I took a look inside to make sure it was still quiet. We silently trudged through the yard, trying not to hit the puddles that had gathered in the grass. Sunny pointed at the massive pile of newspaper that was stacked against the tree ahead. She handed me a box of matches and I buried them deep into my pocket.

“We need to be quiet un-wrapping the paper.” Sunny said, handing me a pile of it. Just fold it together and surround the entire base of the tree. Sunny began to climb up to the first branch. “I am going to go up here and put some paper down on the branches. When the fire starts, it will catch on faster.” I folded up each piece she had handed me as she climbed to the second level of the tree.

“Don’t go all the way to the top Sun” I yelled in a whisper. “It will catch once the rest does.”

“I know I’m just getting these first few levels.” Sunny replied. I launched the plastic lighter fluid bottle through the air and up to Sunny. She reached, but missed and it fell with a thud on the ground beneath her. I looked around to see if anyone had heard us. Grabbing the bottle I hung from a low branch and extended it to Sunny. She covered the torso and base of the tree with fluid.

“That’s all of the newspaper” I said as Sunny jumped down next to me. “It looks ok to me.”

“Ok let’s light it then.” She said grabbing the matches from her sweatshirt.

“Sunny are you sure you want to do this?” I asked looking up at her. Our eyes had adjusted to the moonlight.

“I’m sure Scarlett.” She said. “Where are your matches?” I dug in my pocket and pulled them out. I opened the pack and drew one out. Sunny struck her match against the graded box. A loud, roar of flame pierced the silence. The light filled our eyes and then shrunk to slowly smolder the stick in her hand. She slowly walked up to the tree, shielding the match from the wind as she walked. Without looking back at me she set it down on the newspaper. Nothing. The flame had blown out in the dry, windy night as fast as it was lit.

“Sunny, it’s too windy.” I said lighting a match and watching it go out in my hand.

“Come stand next to me Scarlett. You block the air and I’ll light a few of the pieces of paper. If it hits the lighter fluid then it will catch. I’ve seen Dad do it a hundred times on the grill.” I walked up to her and kneeled down next to her. The water soaked through to my knees and I trembled as a rush of cold dew soaked into my pants. After a few tries we had a little fire. The papers had lit and Sunny just kept striking matches. She finished her pack and reached for mine. I handed it to her and she held a piece of burning paper up to the first branch. It caught on slowly and crept up the tree’s arms, lighting the sky.

“Ok, let’s get out of here Sunny!” I grabbed the empty boxes of matches and threw them in the fire. Sunny left the bottle on the grass and I kicked it toward the flames. She ran back to the house and I sprinted after her. She stopped outside of our house and looked back. The entire base of the tree had caught and was blazing. “Go, come on, we need to get to our room now, we can watch it from there.”

We slid the door shut as quietly as it opened and crept up the staircase. I looked back and saw that our wet feet had made marks on the carpet. It was too late to go back; we had to be in our beds when the fire trucks came. Sunny slipped open the door and I jumped through. We changed our clothes and stashed them in the closet.

“Look at this.” Sunny said, gazing out of our window. The orange light from outside was piercing through the window and waving across her face. I toed over beside her.

“Wow. Sunny.” The wind had blown our fire up the tree. The air had been dry enough after a day full of rain and allowed the fire to flush through every leaf.

“Listen.” Sunny said looking out of the window down the street. Screeching sirens roared through the silent night. Lights started to turn on around the neighborhood. The bedroom lights in the Bryant’s house illuminated. Mrs. Bryant stepped out onto her balcony. Mr. Bryant was close behind and shielded his eyes from the massive fire. My father ran out of the garage door below our window and out into the yard. He stared at the fire and walked onto the street. My mom opened our bedroom door.

“Girls” She saw us staring out the window. “Are you ok?” We stood, with our eyebrows raised and ran to our mother. “The firemen are on the way, your father called them. He thinks it might have been heat lightning.” Sunny looked at me across my mom’s chest and pressed her face into her. “They’ll have it out in a few minutes.” We followed my mom down the stairs and onto the driveway. My dad was talking to the neighbors across the street. Mr. and Mrs. Bryant stood on their balcony, eyes glued to the flames. Three police cars slammed to a stop outside of our house. They immediately ran up to my father to ask questions.

“Look” Sunny nudged me and I followed her gaze up to the Bryant’s balcony. Mr. Bryant had slipped into his house at the arrival of the police. I shook my head and looked at Sunny. Coward. The fire trucks peeled around the corner and started unraveling the hose. As they ran across the yard, I took one last look at the Oak.

The arms of the tree shook in the wind; they threw balls of blazing leafs across the yard as the firemen turned on the water. Our childhood memories made under the tree on hot summer days all came rushing back to me. Sunny hanging from her knees upside down when we were in elementary school, mom setting up picnics in the shade, my hiding spot and Sunny’s eternal get away. They all slowly smoked into the dark sky as the Oak melted.

The firemen spent about twenty minutes putting out the flames leaving a skeleton of crisped bark. They carefully took an axe to the base and dragged the burnt corpse to the front of our lawn. One of them walked back to the site of the fire for one last check. He held an extinguisher and sprayed away at some of the smoking remnants. My father finished talking to the policeman about the incident and my mother walked us into the door.

“Sunny.” I said, pointing at the fireman by the tree stump. He had bent down to pick up a few things. “I forgot. I left your–“

“No.” She said. The man walked up to my father. The policeman saw the potential for evidence and approached the fireman. My mother wouldn’t let us get near them.

“Stay here girls, let your father talk to them, we need to go inside and get some sleep. It’s all over now.” My mother said, herding us into the garage. We walked inside and my mother saw our black footprints on the immaculate white carpet. She just continued to talk, walking us up the stairs. “Get some sleep.” We filed down the hall and into our bedroom. When my mom left the room we both hopped up to see out the window.

“I’m sorry. It was an accident.” I said trying to get some kind of response from her. The fire had never reached the top of the tree where Sunny’s cubby of books had lied. “I’m sure it’s wet. I’m sure they can’t read it.” Sunny pressed her bony finger against the window. Down in the driveway, our father flipped through the pages of the diary. The policeman stood close by him. He slowly dropped it, falling lifelessly against the back of the police car. I closed my eyes. Sunny dropped her hand and stared. The policeman grabbed the book and read where my father had left off. He motioned for two other officers that came to help. Our father finally rose to his feet and looked up at us in the window. His eyes were weary and thin. He looked back to the policeman and pointed at the Bryant’s house. They stepped cautiously up to the front door and knocked heavily. Sunny reached for my hand and grasped it tightly. I squeezed it three hard times and she squeezed back.